Take Time To Realise

I seriously have to sit down and think of what am i doing actually. Doing all this where you won't get any benefits... Sigh. Am i being too sensitive? thinking too much?

Why is that so hard for me to trust someone?
Because I got hurt very deep by someone before this?! Nah!!!

I really don't know how and who can i talk to? I need to talk to someone where he/she can convince me. Telling me that i'm wrong! STOP it! and STOP being so stubborn! :(
I know i'm bad for doing all this.sorry for not trusting you.. :(

Should realx myself and i need to pay a visit to books store and get a book to read where i hope it can help me a lil bit :]

The "3 Minute Jealous Thought Stopper." found it from google! it helps---

You'll want to use this when your jealous thoughts are creeping in and running your life--and you feel out of control.

Remember, jealous thoughts are a habit and they can be changed.

Here's how to do the "3 Minute Jealous Thought Stopper"...


1st-- SIT-- Sit in a quiet place. (The bathroom will do).

2. SETTLE-- Close your eyes, take a few deep breaths, bringing your breath into your feet so that you feel grounded and connected to the earth. Feel yourself slowing down and your breathing deepen. (Maybe 30 seconds)

3. AWARENESS-- Come into awareness of your jealous thoughts in this moment. (What exactly are you thinking? You might even want to ask yourself... "I'm thinking that_______)." And then fill in the blank with what you're thinking. No judging!

4. ASK-- Ask yourself if you know your jealous thoughts to be true--absolutely true. What evidence do you have to support these thoughts? Whether you think your thoughts are true or not true, bring your attention to your heart or gut area and
feel the sensations in your body. (What are you feeling in your body? Is there tightness, a big knot, emptiness, heaviness?)

5. ALLOW-- Allow your sensations to be there without judging them and breathe into that area of the body. (If you feel heavy in your heart area, breathe into that heaviness until the sensation softens. If you feel a "knot" in your gut area, breathe into that knot until it starts to loosen.)

6. REPLACE-- Replace the jealous "movie" running in your head to one that is more in alignment with what you want in your life--because the reality is that both outcomes are possible.


Plsss. i dont want to be like this anymore. :( it's pain.

Chill.I know tomorrow will be better!

Instagram

Weeee... Start playing Instagram very long ago, but i din't really use it cause i normally use fb more...
well well well..i tried it today and it's kinda fun heh!
Sharing out pic's that you love. I like thier 'LIKE' & 'Comments' button.
It's CUTeee :p
Let's play instagram Peepssss!
teeheeee...

Quote for today : Tomorrow will be a better day :]
Mwahhh!

Mazda Rx8 Advertisement

Mazda Rx8 Advertisement. This is a car advertisement done by me, the boyf and a bunch of friend's of mine. It's for my college's assignments and we uploaded it to facebook to see who get the most 'LIKE' Mwahahahahaha...

LOOK! It's ME & Dyan in the video. It's not an easy job during the video recoding. We just need a 30seconds Ads but end up using 2hours plus on recording. PHEWwww~~!! Credits to MY LOVE one Edmund Lai for accompanying me all the way to Rawang for the recod session, Mei - Evan Lai for helping me to get a guy actor - Dyan, Thanks as well. And not to forget my buddy, Chow Yi Peng for giving me idea, lend me her brother's Rx8 and also helping me in recording. She is damn expert. Lastly, most thankful to her bf Kenny Loke for helping me in editing the video. Million thanks to the all of you.

Don't get me wrong, this is not a solo work but a GROUP work. But my so call team work became solo work because the others 2 members of my group are bitch enough to ffk me on the shooting day.wtf wtf!!

I'm angry enough when they never even lend me a hand in getting idea,cars actor, actress and now they still dare to ffk me on that day! Guess what? I'm a soft hearted person. I did not kick them out of my team yet they did not do any work out of it. FARK man! Everyone said i'm STUPID enough.

I said:Nvm,nextime i wouldn't be so stupid... and guess what? I just gives a small request on asking them to give some allowance to the actor and my friends for helping me,and they say this to me..... : Is itbecause you think that we never do any work?We now do the report not easy as well. WTF man! Straight away i tell her if she don't wanna pay, I WILL PAY and do the report by myself! Just a report, What so hard?? I can do it well! DAMN it!! I wouldn't be so stupid anymore, I SWEAR! HmmmPHHhhh!!!

Last Day Of BONANZA

Hello PEOPLE! Anyone there doesn't like to eat Sushi?? UMmmm I personally LOVES sushi to the Max and so do my other half. We are actually on a diet plan but spoilt by the SUSHI KING's BONANZA!! HAHA. Why say so? We are just too weak for the temptation man! SO............. When u think of BONANZA. What's coming up on ur mind?? ME?? LONG QUEUE!!!! wait and wait and wait.. summore it's last day of RM2!! But guess what?! Me and the boyf were just too lucky! reaching Midvalley's SUSHI KING around 7.30pm and got shocked with the bloody long queue... My mood drop to the deepest on the spot when i see the queue. No choice. Continue queuing...... And out of a sudden.One of the SUSHI KING's staff shouting - TWO PERSON TWO PERSON... ANYONE????? HAHA..quickly i raised up my hands and go to him... those who lining up infront of the both of us starts to make noise.. No choice because most of them go in a team of 3-6peoples... HAHAHA... What a lucky day... So,it's RM2 for all the sushi on the belt.. Most of the sushi i ate was SALMON! hehe the one I LOVE the most!! total of 21plates of shushi we ate! GENG lorrr... hahahaaha

me, camwhoring after the eating session.HAHA

we ate 21 plates but they left out 2plates HIS LOVES

Say hie to our NOOB look

this is MY LOVE!

Everyone would wish to go BACK TO DECEMBER

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life? Tell me, how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while

You've been good, busier than ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up, and I know why

Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses, and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December all the time

These days, I haven't been sleeping
Staying up, playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed, and I didn't call

Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
And realized I loved you in the fall

And then the cold came, the dark days
When fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love, and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry

Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand

This is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time, all the time
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家家有本难念的经，是真的!
最近发生了好多的事情，再一夜之间所有的东西旋转了360度。
别说‘她’接受不了，就连我们都无话可说。忙也帮不上!
问问看有哪个人可以接受到一个睡在他身边30几年的人突然失终?
嗨!总之就很难搞!
God bless us pls. *cross my fingers*
I just hope everything to be fine in very soon.
Wish that she can stand up quickly
Cheer.
And we'll back to lastime. I need freedom~!

Feelings of me! Vanilla Twilight by Owl City

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here

It's true that, the fact is always UGLY. So what?!

This is definately a bad year for me, you, and us! How many argument in a roll? Count from the begining of the year. None of the couples will live in peace. There are always an arguement here and there. I UNDERSTAND! - One thing to be remind. Do not say harsh words out of anger. Because that's is not truly from your heart! Do not make promises when you are Happy or Sad too. Cause it might be bullshit after that. - But honestly, I did not face all these problems that i mentioned above. But arguements. When there is a things that you cannot accpet but the other half thinks that it's not a big deal. there the fight starts. And forgiveness and fight and forgive and fight again. This is why PROBLEMS are forever cannot be solve. I did a very wrong things yesterday that even myself also don't blif and regret of what i did!! I called mum and talk to her with rude tone, crying and put all the blame on her! *SLAP* me pls. i deserve it T.T I'm sorry MUM! You did not scold me yet you trying to pamper and help me out. Sorry for making you worry. I'm very sorry. I LOVE YOU, MUM!! Mum ask me not to be so stubborn anymore. She knows me well and know my attitude of handling my stuff. She never worry bout me before this untill the call that i gave her YESTERDAY. She got shocked! And says that i'm just too 固执 in whatever things. No one can help me if i don't help myself. Sigh. I'd know what's the problem and i'm doing my part well now. It might not be good for being too smart. So why don't I try it in another way?! = = = p/s: my bf is good.and he loves me very much!he never do things that harmful to me yet he adore me the most! that's y i chooses him.Cause I care and Love him too.

Hatyai Trip

HATYAI 4D3N wonderful trip! Been planning for this trip since last year.. - It's not hard to plan for a trip, but it's hard to fix a time and date that suits me and the Boyfriend cause new sem has started and the bf just started real estate job. So it's abit hard to take leave. Well, anyhow. The plans run darn smooth as i thought. (smart enough?hehehe ;p) - We went by SRI MAJU Express bus which provide us airplane sits. Leave Bukit Jalil at 10pm on 18th March and reached Hatyai at 7am on 19th March.. It's still consider school holiday and yet its weekends. You can imagine how pack when we were lining up at the CUSTOM. =.='' - I thought i will have the chance to see ah gua everywhere cause my silly boy keep warn me not to be so sakai when i see them.if not i'll get whack..haha. He knows me well~! Maybe if u wanna see ah gua everywhr, u will have to go Bkk or Phuket.

The COCA COLA big bottle at Hatyai's roadside.

this is Floating market. where the siamis do their business on sampan. so special Look at the huge t-shirt for huge people~ 10x XL.phew me n' darl's mummy. spot the love on our shirt ;p hello.Thai Donald. Sawadikapp their 7-11 looks different the mum n her boy~ they serve drinks with plastic cup. us on tuk tuk i always love coke in glass bottle checked in Lee Garden Hotel little sampan looks nice but taste bad :( him with his samurai knife?? ambassador of RED BULL. Booooo! Pork leg rice. yummy~~! I love him.i treassure him! worms...yucks! our love! mango sticky rice~!! nice one!

back on the21st of March

that's all for this post.i ain't feeling well and not in a good mood :(

someone safe me plssss?? :(